Sashe 148
Fulani Part 1 complete Complete Hausa Novel · about 8 min read
Ta tambaya cikin tashi hankali. Sai ya bata amsa cikin kuka marar sauti.
“Saboda bani ne mijin ba�
Fashewa tai da kuka ta rumgume shi da sauri.
“Aa kai ne, kai ne Wallahi...�
Hannunsa ya saka ya banbanreta daga jikinsa ya kama fuska hawaye na sauko masa.
“Da gaske ba ni ba ne, ba ki taba hannun wani namijin kin ji sanyi ba?�
Ta yi shiru tana kuka irin kukan dake shigewa cikin zuciya saboda bakinciki da zafinsa.
“Ka kara zuba min to�
“Idan zan zuba miki sau dari ki rike hannuna sau dubu ba za ki ji komai ba, saboda ba ni ba ne�
“Amman ni ai ni ce ni dai ina sonka haka nan�
Ya sake rumgume kankan, sai ya lumshe ido hawaye na sauko masa.
“Karka bar ni dan Allah, kai kadai na ke so, bana son kowa ni da kai na saba�
“Za ki saba da kowa ma, domin kina da shiga rai, kina burge wanda ya fahimci rayuwarki�
Ta dago tana kallonsa.
“Miyasa to zaka bar ni? Mi na yi?�
Bude idonsa yai ya kalleta.
“Saboda, addina da na ki ba daya ba ne, al'adata da ta ki ba daya ba ce, kuma ba ne mijin ba, domin ba ki ji sanyi a hannuna ba�
“Ai ba dole sai na ji sanyin ba, Dan Allah Wasim ka daina min wasa�
“Ba wasa ba ne, dole ta sa ni kaina ba dan na so ba ne, idan ban rabu da ke ba, Idonki ba zai bude ba, kuma da yanzu ba ki dawo hayyacinci ba, mahaifina ya dage akan dole na rabu da ke, idan ba haka ba ba zai bar ki ba�
“To ka aureni a haka mana, Wasim dan Allah... Ina son idon ya rufe sai mu yi auren dan Allah�
Ta durkushe a gabansa tana fashewa da kuka.
“Ba za ki ga ne ba ne, idan na yi haka b zaki jidadin rayuwar ba, ni ma kuma ba zan so haka agareki ba�
“Na gane baka so na yanzu? Saboda bana jin magana ko? Saboda ina ta yawan magana ko? Na bari daga yau ba zan sake ba, ko na ji maganar ta zo zan yi sauri na rufe bakina, dan Allah kai hakuri Wasim ina sonka, ni dai ina sonka�
Juya mata baya yai ya dafe kansa yana ta hawaye, duk yadda za ta ji ya san b kai kwatar yadda yake ji ba, domin shi ya fara kamuwa da kaunarta, kuma ita zata iya samu wanda zai kula da ita ya biye rayuwarta ta manta da shi amman shi kamin ya samu haka abu ne mai wahala.
“Wasim... �
Ta kira sunansa cikin kuka, sai ya saka hannunsa ya share hawayensa ya juyo ya kalleta.
“Ba ki taba hannun wani kika ji sanyi ba?�
“Ban son shi ban son ban son wacan, ni da kai na saba�
Ta make kafada tana ta kuka tana fadin haka, sai murmushi da hawaye suka zo masa lokaci daya, sai ya duka daidai ita.
“Zan tafi, daman na zo ne na yi miki sallama, ba zan sake dawowa gareki ba, ba za ki sake ganina ba, amman bana son ki manta da ni, kamar yadda ni ma ba zan manta da ke ba�
Ya kama hannayenta duka biyu ya sumbanta.
“Ina sonki sosai ina son ki san wannan, amman kaddara ta raba komai, ba mu isa mu canja kaddara ba, ina miki fatar alheri�
Ya saka dayan hannunsa aljihu ya ciro abun hannu mai kamar na azurfa ya kama hannunta ya saka mata, sannan ya sake saka hannunsa ya dauko sarewa yar karama kamar ta wasan yara ya mika mata.
“Ki busa wannan a duk lokacin da kika tuna da ni�
Ya sumbacin goshinta, sai ta lumshe ido ta matse sarewar a hannunta sosai, can kuma ta bude ido sai ta ga babu shi a gabanta take ta mike tsaye ta fara waige waige.
“Was... Was.... Was....�
Ba ta ko iya furta sunan saboda kukan da ya ci karfinta, sai waige waige take kamar sabuwar mahaukaciya tana kiran sunansa murya a dakishe, sai kuma ta tsaya can tana daukar numfashi kamar ba ita, domin zan ka rantse da Allah Fadime ba zata iya shiga irin wannan halin ba saboda wani ya barta. Jin tai a taba sai ta juyo da sauri, arba tai da Wasim dake sanye da tufafinsa na dazun wando tufafinsa sai dai fuskarsa ta yi kaca kaca da hawaye kamar an yi yakin kuka, idonsa ma sun rine sun masa mugun ja sosai kamar garwashi.
“Mutuwa zan yi dan Allah karka tafi, na ji wani abu a cikin zuciyata yayi min nauyi sosai kumaya danne numfashina.... Kuma... Yana sa ni ciwon kirj kamar zuciyar zata fito, dan Allah karka ta fi idan ka tafi abun zai dawo, zan iya mutuwa�
Ta fada daker numfashi na sarke mata saboda kuka da kuma nauyin zuciyar da take ji abun da bata taba ba. Ta fadi hakan ne saboda bata taba sanin wani abu heartbreak na ainahin ba sai a yau, a strong feeling of sadness har cikin bayanta take jin ciwon.
Hannunsa ya saka ya rike fuskarta sai ya hade goshinsu guri daya ya lumshe ido yana maida numfashi a hankali, yana jin fiye da yadda take ji.
“Ka ce ya rufe idon ka ji? Na yarda ya rufe idon sai ya bar ni na aureka? Ina son ka Wasim dan Allah�
“Ina sonki fiye da yadda kike so na Fateme amman babu yadda zan yi... Ba zan iya zuba ido ki cutu ba, ba zan iya rayuwa cikin farinciki ba bayan ke kinaa cikin wata damuwar�
Ta kama hannunsa ta sake tabawa, ta sake a karo na uku, sai sake karawa sau ba dadin tana ta kuka.
“Wayyo Allah na�
Tana ta yakar kukanta tana sakawa a zuciya domin bata son ya fito, sam bata ma son ta yarda cewar Wasim zai tafi.
“Ko wani abun na yi maka?�
Ya girgiza mata kai.
“Ba ki yi komai ba�
“Ko saboda na ce Zainab Mayya ce?�
“Zainab ba mayya ba ce, Iya ce mayya, kuma ba saboda haka ba ne, na fada miki idan ban rabu da ke ba, idonki ba zai dawo ba, kuma asirin da Hajiya Babba ta yi miki da Hajiya Talatu ba zai barki ba, asiri suka miki aljani ya dauke ki daga can ya dawo da kenan kuma ya mantar da ke komai, kaka ya ki aminta ya yi magana da aljanin har sai idan na yarda ya rabu da ke, kuma dole na aminta saboda ba ni ne mijinki ba�
“Wasim aa dan Allah... Ka bashi hakuri ka ce na ce dan Allah yayi hakuri�
Yayi murmushin tare da hawaye a lokaci daya.
“Babu wani abu da zamu iya yi, je ki yi ibadarki�
Ya sake ta sai tsaye guri daya tana jin cewar idan ta matsa tafiya zai yi.
“Zan yi marmarin murmushinki, kiriniyarki da ma komai na ki, ina son ki sosai�
“Sake zuba min maganin�
Ta tara mishi hannunta tana kuka sosai marar sauti, sai ya share hawayen idonsa yana kallon fuskarta.
“Ba ki yarda da ni ba ne Fateme?�
Ta daga masa kai alamar eh bata yarda din ba, sai yai murmushi idonsa suka sake cika da kwalla.
“To rufe idonki na miki na ido�
“Idan na rufe sai ka tafi?�
“Aa zan tsaya har sai kin yarda�
Sai ta rufe ido daya ta bude daya, nan ma Murmushi yai yana jin kamar ya kurma ihu saboda zai bar Fadime, dabi'unta na daga cikin abubuwan da ke burgeshi.
“Dole sai kin rufe duka....�
Ya fada cikin kuka irin na masa, domin ya san tafiya zai yi ya barta, ba kamar yadda take zato ba. Sai ta rufe idon tana ta saurare ko zata ji wani abu ko ta gani amman shiru, hakan yasa ta bude idon sai ta ga babu kowa a dakin. Ta fi karfin minti talatin a tsaye tana hawaye sai sauraren abun da ke mata yawo a zuciya yake, can kuma ya kai hannu ta dauki sarewar tana dubawa hawaye har basa bari ta ga komai daidai. Dukawa tai ta aje sarewar ta nufi inda take ganin Hijab ta dauka bata ko tsaya neman prayer mat ba ta yi sallah a kan tile, tana sallah tana hawaye har ta sallame, a lokacin da ta daga hannunta tai addu'a sai ta rasa abun da zata roka, sai kawai ta fashe da wani irin kuka sosai.
***
Muhseen na daf da shiga mota wayarsa dake aljihu tai ringing ciro wayar yai yana duba sunan mai kiran Shattima ne rubuce akan wayar, picking yai.
“Hello Shattima�
“Muhseen ya gida?�
“Alhamdulillah ya hakuri? Gobe zamu shigo Inshallah�
“Allah ya kai mu kana kusa da Fateema?�
“Eh ka yi sa'a yanzu zan bar gidan Mama Fulani�
“Ai kullum cikin sa'a na ke�
“Eh kan tun da ka samu wannan talkative din�
Muhseen ya fada da dariya sannan ya juya ya shiga cikin yana labartarwa Shattima yadda Aliyu ya fada masa sun tsinci Ataa. Kai tsaye ya nufi upstairs ya kwankwansa kofar dakin da Fadime take ciki sannan ya bude ya shiga, sai ya same ta zaune hawaye na sauko mata kamar wanda akai wa mutuwa. Mamaki ne ya rufe Muhseen sai ya sauke wayar daga kunnensa yana kallonta.
“Lafiya?�
Hade kukan kawai take bata iya cewa komai, hakan yasa shi tunanin ko ta sake losing memory ta ne?
“Yasmin?�
Nan ma bata amsa ba, domin jin take idan ta bude bakinta kuka ne zai fito.
“Lafiya?�
Shattima ya tambaya daga cikin wayar, sai Muhseen ya maida wayar kunnensa.
“Kuka take?�
“Kuka? Bata wayar�
Muhseen ya karasa inda take zaune ya mika mata wayar.
“Shattima zai yi magana da ke�
Kin karba tai sai hawaye take tana fisgar numfashi da karfi.
“Ba ta karba ba�
“Me akai mata?�
“I don't know�
“Kara mata a kunne�
Muhseen yayi yadda Shattima ya fada ya kai wayar saitin kunnenta ya kara mata.
“Fateema...�
Shattima ya kira sunanta a hankali tare da fatar ta amsa mishi sai ya ji shiru.
“Fateema talk to me, fada min matsalarki�
“Ai duk kai ne ka taba hannuna har sanyin ya cire gashi nan ya taba ban ji sanyi ba�
“Saboda bani ne mijin ba�
Fashewa tai da kuka ta rumgume shi da sauri.
“Aa kai ne, kai ne Wallahi...�
Hannunsa ya saka ya banbanreta daga jikinsa ya kama fuska hawaye na sauko masa.
“Da gaske ba ni ba ne, ba ki taba hannun wani namijin kin ji sanyi ba?�
Ta yi shiru tana kuka irin kukan dake shigewa cikin zuciya saboda bakinciki da zafinsa.
“Ka kara zuba min to�
“Idan zan zuba miki sau dari ki rike hannuna sau dubu ba za ki ji komai ba, saboda ba ni ba ne�
“Amman ni ai ni ce ni dai ina sonka haka nan�
Ya sake rumgume kankan, sai ya lumshe ido hawaye na sauko masa.
“Karka bar ni dan Allah, kai kadai na ke so, bana son kowa ni da kai na saba�
“Za ki saba da kowa ma, domin kina da shiga rai, kina burge wanda ya fahimci rayuwarki�
Ta dago tana kallonsa.
“Miyasa to zaka bar ni? Mi na yi?�
Bude idonsa yai ya kalleta.
“Saboda, addina da na ki ba daya ba ne, al'adata da ta ki ba daya ba ce, kuma ba ne mijin ba, domin ba ki ji sanyi a hannuna ba�
“Ai ba dole sai na ji sanyin ba, Dan Allah Wasim ka daina min wasa�
“Ba wasa ba ne, dole ta sa ni kaina ba dan na so ba ne, idan ban rabu da ke ba, Idonki ba zai bude ba, kuma da yanzu ba ki dawo hayyacinci ba, mahaifina ya dage akan dole na rabu da ke, idan ba haka ba ba zai bar ki ba�
“To ka aureni a haka mana, Wasim dan Allah... Ina son idon ya rufe sai mu yi auren dan Allah�
Ta durkushe a gabansa tana fashewa da kuka.
“Ba za ki ga ne ba ne, idan na yi haka b zaki jidadin rayuwar ba, ni ma kuma ba zan so haka agareki ba�
“Na gane baka so na yanzu? Saboda bana jin magana ko? Saboda ina ta yawan magana ko? Na bari daga yau ba zan sake ba, ko na ji maganar ta zo zan yi sauri na rufe bakina, dan Allah kai hakuri Wasim ina sonka, ni dai ina sonka�
Juya mata baya yai ya dafe kansa yana ta hawaye, duk yadda za ta ji ya san b kai kwatar yadda yake ji ba, domin shi ya fara kamuwa da kaunarta, kuma ita zata iya samu wanda zai kula da ita ya biye rayuwarta ta manta da shi amman shi kamin ya samu haka abu ne mai wahala.
“Wasim... �
Ta kira sunansa cikin kuka, sai ya saka hannunsa ya share hawayensa ya juyo ya kalleta.
“Ba ki taba hannun wani kika ji sanyi ba?�
“Ban son shi ban son ban son wacan, ni da kai na saba�
Ta make kafada tana ta kuka tana fadin haka, sai murmushi da hawaye suka zo masa lokaci daya, sai ya duka daidai ita.
“Zan tafi, daman na zo ne na yi miki sallama, ba zan sake dawowa gareki ba, ba za ki sake ganina ba, amman bana son ki manta da ni, kamar yadda ni ma ba zan manta da ke ba�
Ya kama hannayenta duka biyu ya sumbanta.
“Ina sonki sosai ina son ki san wannan, amman kaddara ta raba komai, ba mu isa mu canja kaddara ba, ina miki fatar alheri�
Ya saka dayan hannunsa aljihu ya ciro abun hannu mai kamar na azurfa ya kama hannunta ya saka mata, sannan ya sake saka hannunsa ya dauko sarewa yar karama kamar ta wasan yara ya mika mata.
“Ki busa wannan a duk lokacin da kika tuna da ni�
Ya sumbacin goshinta, sai ta lumshe ido ta matse sarewar a hannunta sosai, can kuma ta bude ido sai ta ga babu shi a gabanta take ta mike tsaye ta fara waige waige.
“Was... Was.... Was....�
Ba ta ko iya furta sunan saboda kukan da ya ci karfinta, sai waige waige take kamar sabuwar mahaukaciya tana kiran sunansa murya a dakishe, sai kuma ta tsaya can tana daukar numfashi kamar ba ita, domin zan ka rantse da Allah Fadime ba zata iya shiga irin wannan halin ba saboda wani ya barta. Jin tai a taba sai ta juyo da sauri, arba tai da Wasim dake sanye da tufafinsa na dazun wando tufafinsa sai dai fuskarsa ta yi kaca kaca da hawaye kamar an yi yakin kuka, idonsa ma sun rine sun masa mugun ja sosai kamar garwashi.
“Mutuwa zan yi dan Allah karka tafi, na ji wani abu a cikin zuciyata yayi min nauyi sosai kumaya danne numfashina.... Kuma... Yana sa ni ciwon kirj kamar zuciyar zata fito, dan Allah karka ta fi idan ka tafi abun zai dawo, zan iya mutuwa�
Ta fada daker numfashi na sarke mata saboda kuka da kuma nauyin zuciyar da take ji abun da bata taba ba. Ta fadi hakan ne saboda bata taba sanin wani abu heartbreak na ainahin ba sai a yau, a strong feeling of sadness har cikin bayanta take jin ciwon.
Hannunsa ya saka ya rike fuskarta sai ya hade goshinsu guri daya ya lumshe ido yana maida numfashi a hankali, yana jin fiye da yadda take ji.
“Ka ce ya rufe idon ka ji? Na yarda ya rufe idon sai ya bar ni na aureka? Ina son ka Wasim dan Allah�
“Ina sonki fiye da yadda kike so na Fateme amman babu yadda zan yi... Ba zan iya zuba ido ki cutu ba, ba zan iya rayuwa cikin farinciki ba bayan ke kinaa cikin wata damuwar�
Ta kama hannunsa ta sake tabawa, ta sake a karo na uku, sai sake karawa sau ba dadin tana ta kuka.
“Wayyo Allah na�
Tana ta yakar kukanta tana sakawa a zuciya domin bata son ya fito, sam bata ma son ta yarda cewar Wasim zai tafi.
“Ko wani abun na yi maka?�
Ya girgiza mata kai.
“Ba ki yi komai ba�
“Ko saboda na ce Zainab Mayya ce?�
“Zainab ba mayya ba ce, Iya ce mayya, kuma ba saboda haka ba ne, na fada miki idan ban rabu da ke ba, idonki ba zai dawo ba, kuma asirin da Hajiya Babba ta yi miki da Hajiya Talatu ba zai barki ba, asiri suka miki aljani ya dauke ki daga can ya dawo da kenan kuma ya mantar da ke komai, kaka ya ki aminta ya yi magana da aljanin har sai idan na yarda ya rabu da ke, kuma dole na aminta saboda ba ni ne mijinki ba�
“Wasim aa dan Allah... Ka bashi hakuri ka ce na ce dan Allah yayi hakuri�
Yayi murmushin tare da hawaye a lokaci daya.
“Babu wani abu da zamu iya yi, je ki yi ibadarki�
Ya sake ta sai tsaye guri daya tana jin cewar idan ta matsa tafiya zai yi.
“Zan yi marmarin murmushinki, kiriniyarki da ma komai na ki, ina son ki sosai�
“Sake zuba min maganin�
Ta tara mishi hannunta tana kuka sosai marar sauti, sai ya share hawayen idonsa yana kallon fuskarta.
“Ba ki yarda da ni ba ne Fateme?�
Ta daga masa kai alamar eh bata yarda din ba, sai yai murmushi idonsa suka sake cika da kwalla.
“To rufe idonki na miki na ido�
“Idan na rufe sai ka tafi?�
“Aa zan tsaya har sai kin yarda�
Sai ta rufe ido daya ta bude daya, nan ma Murmushi yai yana jin kamar ya kurma ihu saboda zai bar Fadime, dabi'unta na daga cikin abubuwan da ke burgeshi.
“Dole sai kin rufe duka....�
Ya fada cikin kuka irin na masa, domin ya san tafiya zai yi ya barta, ba kamar yadda take zato ba. Sai ta rufe idon tana ta saurare ko zata ji wani abu ko ta gani amman shiru, hakan yasa ta bude idon sai ta ga babu kowa a dakin. Ta fi karfin minti talatin a tsaye tana hawaye sai sauraren abun da ke mata yawo a zuciya yake, can kuma ya kai hannu ta dauki sarewar tana dubawa hawaye har basa bari ta ga komai daidai. Dukawa tai ta aje sarewar ta nufi inda take ganin Hijab ta dauka bata ko tsaya neman prayer mat ba ta yi sallah a kan tile, tana sallah tana hawaye har ta sallame, a lokacin da ta daga hannunta tai addu'a sai ta rasa abun da zata roka, sai kawai ta fashe da wani irin kuka sosai.
***
Muhseen na daf da shiga mota wayarsa dake aljihu tai ringing ciro wayar yai yana duba sunan mai kiran Shattima ne rubuce akan wayar, picking yai.
“Hello Shattima�
“Muhseen ya gida?�
“Alhamdulillah ya hakuri? Gobe zamu shigo Inshallah�
“Allah ya kai mu kana kusa da Fateema?�
“Eh ka yi sa'a yanzu zan bar gidan Mama Fulani�
“Ai kullum cikin sa'a na ke�
“Eh kan tun da ka samu wannan talkative din�
Muhseen ya fada da dariya sannan ya juya ya shiga cikin yana labartarwa Shattima yadda Aliyu ya fada masa sun tsinci Ataa. Kai tsaye ya nufi upstairs ya kwankwansa kofar dakin da Fadime take ciki sannan ya bude ya shiga, sai ya same ta zaune hawaye na sauko mata kamar wanda akai wa mutuwa. Mamaki ne ya rufe Muhseen sai ya sauke wayar daga kunnensa yana kallonta.
“Lafiya?�
Hade kukan kawai take bata iya cewa komai, hakan yasa shi tunanin ko ta sake losing memory ta ne?
“Yasmin?�
Nan ma bata amsa ba, domin jin take idan ta bude bakinta kuka ne zai fito.
“Lafiya?�
Shattima ya tambaya daga cikin wayar, sai Muhseen ya maida wayar kunnensa.
“Kuka take?�
“Kuka? Bata wayar�
Muhseen ya karasa inda take zaune ya mika mata wayar.
“Shattima zai yi magana da ke�
Kin karba tai sai hawaye take tana fisgar numfashi da karfi.
“Ba ta karba ba�
“Me akai mata?�
“I don't know�
“Kara mata a kunne�
Muhseen yayi yadda Shattima ya fada ya kai wayar saitin kunnenta ya kara mata.
“Fateema...�
Shattima ya kira sunanta a hankali tare da fatar ta amsa mishi sai ya ji shiru.
“Fateema talk to me, fada min matsalarki�
“Ai duk kai ne ka taba hannuna har sanyin ya cire gashi nan ya taba ban ji sanyi ba�