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Through tears, she removed her eyeglasses and looked at him before saying,
"Bilal's father, what have I done to you? What wrong did I commit for you to punish me by taking another wife? Do you no longer love me? What exactly am I lacking that would make you decide to remarry at this point in our lives? We have spent thirteen years together without you ever considering another woman, but now, now when I need you the most beside me, you suddenly want another wife? Why? Why do you want to remarry? Have you become tired of me? Or is it your family pressuring you because I still have not been able to..."
He already knew what she intended to say, so he quickly covered her mouth.
He pulled her head gently against his chest while rubbing her back softly.
"Haba Mommy Bilal, why are you allowing Satan plant these thoughts inside your heart? Did I ever tell you that you offended me? Did I ever say I want to remarry because I stopped loving you? Please calm down and listen to me. Only then will you truly understand me."
She suddenly lifted her head forcefully from his chest.
"Understand you? Is that what you are saying? I understand you now more than ever. You already destroyed the trust and understanding I once had for you. Usman, wallahi I will never listen to you again. You deceived me. You betrayed me. All these years I believed I was living under honesty and sincerity. Every day you told me I was the only woman you wanted. You always said you had no interest in marrying another wife and no reason to ever do so. Yet today you stand before me saying you want another marriage? Truly, now I finally understand why people say a man can never truly belong to a woman. Any woman who depends completely on a man will eventually become an orphan while he is still alive. Today I have seen the reality with my own eyes."
Seeing the way she stared at him, he realized her eyesight problem was affecting her again.
He picked up her glasses from the side and attempted to place them back on her face, but she angrily slapped his hand away and sat properly on the chair.
"Leave me alone, deceiver."
He looked at her in total shock before slowly sitting beside her.
Without taking his eyes off her, he said softly,
"Please Mommy Bilal, stop crying. More than anyone else, you know your condition and how delicate your eyesight already is. Please stop crying. You know your tears deeply hurt my heart. Wallahi I hate seeing you cry, even if they are tears of happiness. If only you understood the pain I feel whenever I see these tears fall from your eyes, then surely you would pity me enough to wipe them away and listen to your husband."
As she wiped her tears, she replied bitterly,
"You were the one who personally bought me this ticket to sorrow. With your own hands, you pushed me into this vehicle of pain and anxiety. Usman, wallahi I never expected this from you. Yet you are still asking me not to cry? Hmm."
He leaned back deeply into the chair, looking completely troubled.
"Honestly, I never expected this reaction from you. I feel like all the courage I walked into this house with has disappeared. Right now I hate myself. I wish death had taken me before this day arrived. Me, Usman, today I became the reason my wife is shedding tears. The woman I am proud of. My happiness. My peace and comfort. The mother of my beloved son and the woman dearest to my heart. Today I truly feel like my life has no meaning anymore. The woman I love more than anything in this world is now calling me a deceiver. The woman whose happiness means everything to me now calls me an oppressor. The woman I value most after my own mother now calls me dishonest. The woman whose prayers I treasure like my mother's own prayers now says I handed her a ticket to sorrow. The woman I firmly believe my life can never truly be complete without is now trying to destroy the peace of our home."
He slowly lifted himself from the chair and looked directly into her eyes.
"My Nana Khadija, the woman I know, is patient, understanding, forgiving, and compassionate. She supports everything I love. If I were to tell her that something white is black, she would stand beside me and insist it is black even if she were threatened. That is the Khadija I know. And because of that, I will never allow these tears to continue falling from your eyes. I love you and my love is not a lie. Therefore, Nana Khadija, from this moment onward, I have cancelled the marriage completely. If this marriage is the cause of your sadness, then I swear I have abandoned the idea forever."
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